Saturday, September 5, 2015

Natalia


"Natalia"
Colored pencils on Lana Colours 160g/m2 gray paper.
2015

 Started this artwork back in  the spring. Kind of lost motivation to complete it, so there it stood alone in the dark  for months, until i finally decided to fininish it this september.

Friday, July 10, 2015

Illustrators vol.2


So very happy to be part of 53 illustrators in this beautiful new book: "i ruudus: illustraatorid vol 2".
There's 4 pages of text/art for every artist, total of 453 illustrations in whole book.

For those who are interested can find the book here: http://www.apollo.ee/i-ruudus-illustraatorid-vol-2.html and  http://www.rahvaraamat.ee/p/i-ruudus-illustraatorid-vol-2/682533/et?isbn=9789949384679

Monday, March 9, 2015

Sundress

"Sundress"
colored pencils, white pastels and  black pen on gray cardboard
2015

And the sun finally came. I can feel spring in my heart.
I hope everyone had a wonderful womens day!

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Falling in love with the words

Listening to nostalgic songs, reading nostalgic old letters.
Pencils and papers all over the place. Drawings waiting for a sunny day, so i could take a picture of them.
Maybe tomorrow.
I should draw something right now. I have this  gorgeous beige pastel paper right under my nose, but my mind keeps wandering off.
Shouldn't get into nostalgic mood at midnight. Such a terrible mistake! I should know better.
Taking a deep breath and closing all windows to lost memories.


Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Standing strong on my own

"Standing strong on my own"
Pencils on paper
2015

 And for the first time in a very long time i am really busy with something. Project that still sounds like a dream to me. So at this moment i am drawing until my hands fall off. As i am perfectionist, i make things really difficult for myself. I feel excited, stressed, anxious, happy, sad and messy.  But in the end it's worth it.

And the silence came just like i expected, but it's ok. I have no time to be heartbroken, maybe i have more time when it's all over...

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Winter and the paths we take


There was this most beautiful autumn i have ever experienced, all the warmth, colors and sunlight i have ever wanted from autumn. After that the winter came and i feel so different than i usually do. Having spent most of the winters of my life in the city, this year was different, this place is different. Small houses with tiny gardens, all sitting next to eachother in this lovely winter. The silence that  breaks occasionaly with dogs barking and airplane going over, the streets that still covered with pure white snow, the snowman with flower pot hat and someones tiny christmas tree on their house roof. The big and little things like that make this winter less terrible. You see, i usually don't like winter too much, i always long for the first breath of spring to come. This is the first winter i haven't complained about feeling cold ( and no i haven't got myself new coat :)), which is a miracle for a person like me who always feels cold. And i go for walks more than ever, usually accompanied by  my dear dog, but in my head i wish there was that 3rd person with me, besides myself and the dog. I don't know if i have even asked him if he likes to go walking, He is sweet and wonderful, i am sure he likes to, but i couldn't dare to ask now. It's too late, timing is absolutely terrible. Some paths are never meant to collide.

I didn't think i would feel this way,
about everything,
even about the winter,
but it makes me wanna write,
it makes me wanna create,
and wasnt that what i wanted after all...


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Cut me loose

"Cut Me Loose"
colored pencils on paper
2015


Don't you ever feel like you want to be saved. Someone who would come and cut you loose from all your fears that have haunted you for years. Someone who would force you to live and have no regrets. I am so tired of being afraid and you are so tired of seeing me like that.

But i have to be my own savior, cut myself loose, from everything and everyone who stop me from feeling alive.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

I still have me

"I still have me"
pencils on paper
2015

Experimenting with a little bit more expressive style.  I like drawing weird, ugly and anatomically incorrect hands to pretty girls. Makes it a little more interesting.


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Friday, January 9, 2015

Frozen Garden

"Frozen garden"
pencil and pen on paper
2015

Experimented with florals are bit in this drawing, but overall i don't think i am happy how this all turned out. Probably will end up deleting this post sooner or later. I am after something really expressive and alive art style, but i am not there yet. Yes i am still stoping myself with perfectionism. Thats why this picture turned out so cold, just like stone statue. I am still learning, still searching for my style.